preparing to sleep, i think of you

It is the end of today.

I will look into my papers
And throw away the drafts.
Slowly I will put my things
One by one
Into their places
The spoon in the dish rack,
The pen into the glass,
Along with the pencils and markers.
I will carefully fold the bills
That has been settled
And post the bills that haven’t been.

I will look into the memory of only today
And sort my life
Like I do every other end of todays.
Every yesterday.

And as my heart is sinking
Tediously, I will leave you for
A while
And hope that I would never have to
Tomorrow.

My pillows will be my only companion tonight
Drowning in the tears that I will shed
Only for you.
Deafened by my silent mumbles.

My longing will be my prayers,
As every night it has put me to sleep.

And you will be my dream
To close the end of today.

This is the end of today.